I wonder if the older lady has a hard life now that she knows me, but it looks like she has before, too.

True, she seems happy, now.  Supposedly, she was also happy before, but it seems she is happier now.

True, my life seems less happy though I'm happier she's in it, a happier part.  It's not because of people being mean to me, I just feel unhappy, like I grew older or stopped exercising or something.