People are acting like whining about things, like that they hurt someone I know.

Oh well?  I think they planned it out.  It's over.

They took more away and act much worse.

What a waste of time this is.

They said it was obvious I wasn't good enough for the older lady I like, but they are just getting in the way because she said okay.

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I edited my last post.

Supposedly because they are against what I did anyway, the older lady I like keeps acting like she's nothing to me.  That's what the people monitoring me in private are doing, anyway.  Over and over.  They are laughing in triumph I have to do something to feel better over and over.  They were mad I posted about her about something in particular.

What if the Orlando area just presented me with information in a distracting way?  I know what I really mean.

They are saying I'm worse than someone but maybe don't mean it.

They got uptight and now are really mean.  They focused on something uncomfortable.

I wonder why I'm considered unliked all of as sudden.  I am not sure how people sense me.  They all have their own flaws.

I've got a lot of things going my way for some people to just give me a no, alas.

They suggested I was like the daughter of an older lady I like in an uncomfortable way and that someone else was all that to her ... and she is younger than both of us.

f.y.i.

The people monitoring me in private present things in very tacky and sorta grotesque ways.

I felt thrashed about that I assumed all the uncomfortable things of the daughter of an older lady I like and like I wasn't that good to the older lady.

so..

I came home from my gramma's and my dad was driving so badly in a way that hurt etc.  He doesn't like it when I say he's bothering me and to stop it, yells and threatens to throw me out maybe it was then.  So, at home I was only a little assertive closing the door and he acted like something was wrong.  I took my stuff in aggressively.

I supposedly also hurt someone acting aggressive when they could hear.


I'm being judged just for posting about it now.  I was avoiding it.

Either way, I'm sad and don't feel up to it.

It sort of discredits me.  It seems like it's been played around about whether or not it wasn't intended.

I'm wondering about a lady's daughter and if she's really like her mom or gets upset because of traits from her dad not being like her mommy's.  People look to see if she's like her mom and assume anything different is from her dad, but that might not be the case.

People are acting like I did something wrong, in this regard, but I'm already out of the picture, whereas before I wasn't.  They assumed I must have the same problems in relation to her mom and that her mom is better and laugh at it being peculiar they think we're the same in that regard.

What if we took away support from people who think they are better because they are older?

I feel like other people think they are better than me.

What do you think of people holding onto that I don't deserve things I have and in that I've earned things before?

People pretend I am not accepted by the older lady but should be and get mad.  They think this is the big picture.  Ank! Wrong!

Why am I not considered good enough now?  Didn't the older lady agree to this?

Something is wrong with Orlando and they way they like to communicate with the people involved following me around in private.  They swear an older lay I'm friends with says all these mean things, but I don't care that's up to her.  I still get in trouble because sometimes my nose wrinkles or I feel anger at what is supposedly her emit itself ... or I think something on purpose and other things happen.  It's too late.  Maybe, I just wasn't ready.  I grew up with problems of prejudice, and people think that means I'm just weaker than everyone.  The things that bring others peace aren't applicable to me.  Also, people have threatened this lady.

I'm supposed to do bad things to get good things, rather suffer for friendship or love.

Hey, would you enjoy the public eye or making a difference in others's lives to change your own?  Are people all dishonest?

You mean you're Catholic or religious and want to be treated this way?

What?  Are you all scrambling for your own race to put me in danger of people hating me and hurting me by accident seemingly? and it's too late and there are many nice people out there, especially in other areas than the Orlando, Central Florida area?

No one knows how to deal with my guilt.  They just go crazy and act selfish and have faults.

People keep acting racist to me, but many people are reserved and wouldn't dare and are cool with me.  I guess I need to combat the racism.  They just keep going, like the Energizer Bunny and wasting my life, which isn't new, though I want to feel I got by it.

I'm not gonna submit to people but having a hard time avoiding them.

I think it was some person who came in and kindled racism as an interest.

Okay!  I want them to stop hurting others.

People are acting like I agreed I was some other racial interest than I am.  Someone is going crazy.

So many people are like that.  They ultimately take it out on minority ethnicities or races.

I think someone I know has a problem, just mad and blaming others about life not being handed to them like they like.

I thought you wanted me to shut up.

Why is it like I spoke to someone?

Well, I think it's over, I'm being blamed for doing something to someone by accident.  That's what I said.

I can't get away with any thought while being monitored in private and people reacting rashly.  Maybe, we can work this out?

Some people keep being mean...

Someone probably has been hurting people who are nice to me.

I know they are just being bad and making out things to be bigger than they are and worrying about them.

I even felt guilty to my own life if I did something by accident, and that's just a joke, wanting a fate worth than death.

People think others deserve things and I don't.

I am focusing on the specific problems and the general way of things.

They think I accidentally did something to someone and if I think I have my friendship with an older lady the other person dies.

People are going crazy acting like I have to fight being perverted, and well I am.

I mentioned the problem but ended up mentioning a friendship with an older lady they've been trying to take away.

I think people are crazy guilty about how they made others.

It is sick what doesn't matter...  They are on autopilot here in the Orlando, Central Florida area.

Someone broke a fight.

There's a thing about me not bringing up things so much as sacrifice as not working.

They think it's worked out and if I say anything it's a big deal and makes it worse.

They're going crazy trying to be racist to me like others.

They started to take big things away and get much meaner, like it doesn't matter and I did something so bad that means they can do whatever they want to me, which is in the USA "cruel and unusual punishment."  Other people don't get treated like this and get some things; they think what I get is so good but are acting like they're gonna take it away anyway, like it's just for this journey experience.

Why is it getting worse and worse?  Am I getting worse and worse?

So, what do I do?  What's the agreement, now?  This is just gonna get out of hand.

There are people monitoring me in private controlling my social life and letting people hurt me and others.

I did something for someone, and someone acted like it wasn't fate or didn't have to be and used it for themselves.

I'm thinking they were too pressured to punish me for something and took it too far.

I'm being pressured about someone dying.

People are full of themselves about me supposedly being punished like I don't deserve a friendship with an older lady.

Help!  It's like they might be killing someone or letting them die.

Out of nowhere, I'm being tested about my ethnicities.

They won't stop fighting.

Someone keeps acting like I did something to deserve to be bullied.  I guess some people I like went against me.

I still have a life, and they're working on separating me from having a friendship like it's their decision as a fixation.

Someone is chuckling like I submitted to them saying I was next, to be hurt.

I tried to "play along," but "this has gone too far."

They're more concerned about punishing me than life being okay.

I'm just worried they keep hurting people, in a way.

They think I will listen to what everyone will say when they're all foolish, with many people.  I also caught them using racism like I did something in that way.

They're blood thirsty and will kill.

Someone is hurt, and I'm in trouble for doing something by accident I didn't realize, and people are going crazy trying to use someone I like to say bad things for as proof...

People want to talk more about related events.

I feel I'm sitting here fighting stupid battles.

I'm feeling pressured that others will be hurt if I don't submit, like they think I should be punished for supposedly causing great hurt on someone, when I didn't mean to.  Others think it's okay to be bad all the time, in general, and people put up with it, but they do it directly to me and not at the others.  Why not hurt me, instead? just because some people are nice to me and I'm supposedly bad does not make some of them deserve to get hurt.  Funny then others get away with it, even who are nice about/to me.  This doesn't happen to others like to me.

If you do something bad by accident, others can change your life.

People change and are really mean to me when they find out I am not really 100.00% perfect in every possible way.  Everyone else is out and about being bad, mainly mean about/to me.

What do you think about the fact that misfortune occurs to people from others because the others harbor personal problems?

Other people get helped to the top, in unfair ways, if that's possible.

Some problems might be a secret formula to make me mad, to get surprised and forget my social responsibilities in behavior.

I'm focused and thankful for other things but cannot really replace what I'm focusing on with with happiness because it has nothing to do with other things in this way, but I know when I'm not wanted.

Some things make me mad.  I feel misjudged and like I was edged on.

It's happened to me.

The badness is a reflection of the rest of the truth.  Some things are really too bad.

"It's too soon" and "It's too bad."

It is too bad, but I am fighting some of life's biggest and unnecessary and too bad of battles now.  It may be lost and could have been, but I don't know what to do with the rest of life, in some ways.  Like I said, "It didn't work," and not sure how much it could have been worse.

I feel a bit hazy myself about responsibilities to older people who aren't taking responsibility for each other.

I lose what I have, by their random injection.  They pop up and get worse.

I have to put up with others's flaws that others don't and would mess up and are already mean.

It didn't work.

I was supposed to be content about someone rather than someone else.  However, I'm sad about something and it seems to not matter because of something I did but if I supposedly did did by accident and didn't have to be made into a problem but so as habit.  It happened before too much, as well.  It's like this person can abuse me if it's done "legally," but I don't believe in that being okay, and I see it doesn't happen to everyone, as a sensitive issue, just saying.  I need to take responsibility.  I just reacted aggressively, and being that way is on my list of don't's.

Generation X keeps going around like they are more important than anyone else but like they are delirious and inattentive to social responsibilities they've taken on.  They forgot our roots and want to make it hard for me.  They are trying to replace our parents.

I thought if I laid off my usual habits, I wouldn't get certain problems from certain people.  I think it has gone too far if it can.  They like to pick on me and single me out, like they can suggest ways for me to be even more like myself, kind and perfectionist.  They like to supposedly prove me wrong in any thought.  I feel picked on by others, too.  I felt attacked more than some others who got accepted over me later, from when this began.  It's like something is wrong, and peace never comes as a first priority nor does the truth.  The truth is claimed to be bad things, too.  The world wants to know about my private relationship with someone and abuse it.  They make it convenient for my relationship to feel good and me to feel bad.  I think it was done on purpose by people involved monitoring me in private.  The world did not want to do it, naturally.  So, I am thinking this is wrong, and they keep acting like I deserve it.  I have a lot of problems because of them.  They might say they are following someone else and preventing it from happening without their knowing, so it happened already and isn't okay.  Like, it's about knowing something in a certain way that's been done so it won't be done in a worse way, they seem to say.  Once you know, you know.  It could have been prevented.  It might be the result of other decisions.

Why do some people's private thoughts come out and surprise people and make them hate them? like they don't matter but belong to their lives? and have an uncomfortable place in it, when the time comes, at least?  They both mean well.  The thoughts were supposedly private beliefs that could be calculated.  It was only a surprise, and other people get away with it.

I feel partially annoyed at people leaning in on my life all over the US in places like L.A.  Like, they want to know every little thing, like they think they are my mom.  I can't deal with this, forever.

So, people are taking out anger on my life, just in case.  It is my responsibility to remain perfect, my whole life.

I'm not afraid to articulate the truth.  I wonder if I can solve problems in my life, even if they are part of a program for me.

Some people refuse to solve their own problems, when many people do.

Some people like to make a big deal and whine about any comfort.  It's too bad when this happens when they become more important.