I wonder if punishing me for no reason by making more problems ... makes more problems.  Aha ha ha!  I am guessing they are doing the best they can, though.

People think I don't really deserve anything.

For you all to know, I think my life is hard and in the end it may be my demise, the fact I get upset but because there was more to be upset about.

Others just expect the golden egg, the result, from me.  There is no process.  We are all the same otherwise to them.

Do you know about how sometimes there exists a chance that your life will be ruined and people plan it that way and make you mad by hurting you ... or pestering and judging you or something?  So that chance happens?  I wonder if I can focus on not having that happen.

What do you think of people who just go straight into things with background knowledge/check? you know, just to get it out there because they can't concentrate/focus and succumb to pressure, naturally as who they are?  A lot of people out there seem to struggle with things like this sometimes.  Bad things could be happening.

Am I just unlucky?  I deserve justice for myself.

People think feeling happy socially or emotionally is like a possession or something you get rather than a special experience of life.  They use it against me to say I'm greedy and worthless and that they deserve it.  I just can't trust these kinds of people.  They say it hurts them to have to be mean to me, but it doesn't; they are really selfish and think they should have what I have that the don't.  They shouldn't know about it; they were put in that position in a special way.  What is this, something like Elvis?  It is actually true the world is volatile to anything like that in that way.  The only difference is they didn't know something, someone, would be that good.  They acted like they didn't care about that kind of stuff before and ruined the way the world works, in that way.  Now, there are problems we can't fix, at least at the moment.  They are hard to figure out or define and remember, if they are there for sure, but something like that, at least also that maybe they wouldn't get something in the end but maybe still be happy.