Why do I exist putting up with people panicking and going all out and irritating me and acting insecure?

Why am I the one on psychotic medication?  It makes you tired and not feel as much, maybe because it's a faulty diagnosis but not sure why for sure.


It seems I was purposely torn down in high school and recommended out of college because I didn't seem like I had "the stuff" for others, though I was getting ahead in ways technically.  Studying is a lot of hard work, and I can't keep it up.  I've done too much busywork and not enough of what's important.  I'm still mentally sane, though.  You know, people used to go to school to learn to read the Bible, I think, the reason we have school.